Why I Quit My Day Job


A journey seeking happiness, self worth and self discovery. When blogging isn't paying the bills and I quit my day job anyways

Why I Quit My Day Job

(and no, blogging isn’t paying the bills)

I wanted to veer of my usual path today to take off my decorating and DIY hat and just be a real person. Blogging is so fast pasted and spending as much time as I do to grow this little platform in hopes I can express my creativity, helps others see potential in their spaces, and most of all to chase bigger dreams, I oftentimes let the person behind everything here drift into the shadows. It’s hard for me to put a spotlight on myself, but I feel like what I’m going through can help any of you regular readers fully understand why things may be changing soon.

For the past 8 years of my life, I’ve been a Certified Pharmacy Technician. I’d never really had a whole lot of interest in working as a medical professional (sort of except for those few years I wanted to be a geneticist). I had spent my entire middle and high school years glued to HGTV, painting and rearranging/styling my room. But I chose to go the route of CPhT because they were advertising it as good pay, high demand jobs. Unfortunately that’s not really the case for where I live. Long story short, I worked a retail job for 4 years I loathed, then worked another 4 years at the local Air Force Base.

I spent 3 and a half years working as a contractor on base for very good money. But the good money was in exchange for absolutely no job security. The first time I was left without income was the month before my son was born. Then there was a second time that left me without employment for 3 months (that ate up our entire savings). I was finally brought on as a Federal Employee June 26, 2015. It was after a lot of drama, like getting skipped for a position for someone who’d been there for s shorter period of time. Witnessing alarming aggressive behavior from multiple employees towards other employees. Basically, a lot of never resolved incidents that led me to be uncomfortable in my own work environment. I always felt like I was gasping for air- the anxiety was eating me alive.

After a pharmacist flipped out on me for an honest mistake, I was pulled into the office and reprimanded by the OIC. And ever since then, she’s made it more difficult for me to work there. The most recent experience was the final straw for me. I told my civilian supervisor that if he wasn’t fixing it, I would turn in my 2 weeks notice. And he told me that he’d accept that as my 2 weeks notice. He gave me a final out date and I’ve served out my punishment for speaking out against my unfair treatment but working the crappy sections of the pharmacy.

Everyone keeps asking me what I’m going to do next.

Self Discovery, Seeking Happiness, and My Plan

why i quit my day job without a backup plan

Honestly, I have no concrete plan for what I’m doing. I’m seeking happiness and I’m trusting the pull God has put on my heart for a long time.

I’ve had a few pharmacy opportunities pop up, but I feel it weighing so heavily on my heart that it’s my time to move on from the field. I’ve never been happy doing it. And I certainly don’t want to be doing it for the rest of my life.

One part of my life that’s been hard is how I’ve missed out on so much of my son’s life so far. I saw the first 6 weeks of his life, but even then I was packing for our move and freaking out about having just lost my job (and my inability to product breast milk), these were incredibly stressful times. I wasn’t bonding and appreciating his existence. I want to do that before we’ve lost any chance of doing that. So today? I spend with him. And tomorrow? I’ll spend with him. The day after that? Maybe we’ll work something else out.

So is a “Stay At Home Mom” in my cards? Absolutely not. Even if I were to never work out of the home again, I’d be doing something. My passions for home are too strong to forget about. That’s why this blog exists, to share my passion with someone else out there.

Last year when I launched this blog and slowly ended my old blog, I told you all that this was the first stepping stone to becoming an Interior Designer. My plan was to start school Fall 2016 at the local community college for their Interior Design program. Is that still my plan? If we can make it work, definitely!

I got to see a little glimpse of what it’s like to be an Interior Designer in my area at the Coastal Virginia Home and Garden Show that I went to in February and it was something I’m still excited to be a part of.

So big projects may slow down. If you love those, they’re not gone forever. I’ll be catching up on the dining room and bathroom right now. Then I’ll be working on giving the bedrooms a facelift. In Between all of that I’ll be doing simple upgrades to the front and backyard. And eventually, once everything else is set, we’ll get around to doing some work in the kitchen and sunporch. Stick around for all of that, and maybe the occasional post like this one, by letting me into your inbox or following me on Facebook and Instagram. And if you’re ever curious about what inspires me, give my Pinterest a gander.

And if you’ve landed here wondering who the heck I am and where you’ve landed. Here’s a bit about me.

And here’s some posts I’d love for you to check out:

Thanks for being here! I hope you stick around :)


Comments

  1. says

    Good for you!
    I made that choice under similar circumstances and have aligned it with our posting (PCSing).
    Blogging certainly isn’t paying the bills – yet- but I feel we owe it to ourselves to try!
    Good luck sista!

  2. says

    I hope the next stop on your journey brings you more fulfillment, Corinna. I also work at a job that is not my passion, and it can be a tough way to spend your days when you know (or at least feel) you could be doing something else. As a mom I can only imagine it is many, many times harder. Glad that you shared this. <3

  3. says

    You have all my good thoughts and prayers for this next step you’re taking, Corinna! I’ve been contemplating writing a similar post to this for some time – I think people tend to assume I quit my job because blogging was taking off, but in reality I feel I need to confess it was due to crippling anxiety and I’m still searching for exactly what it is I’m supposed to be doing with my life! I can’t wait to see what is next for you, sweet friend!

  4. says

    Thank you for sharing this Corinna! I think it’s so, so easy to get complacent and sometimes you have to take a step back and reevaluate. I’m sure it’s scary at the moment but I can’t wait to see what you do next!

  5. julie spear says

    Thanks for sharing this Corinna…. it is always great to get to know more about the person behind the creative posts you’re sharing. I understand fully your feelings with regard to working in an anxiety-producing job atmophere, and it is awful. NEVER, will I unnderstand the need for others to make people feel small and to undermine their value, especially when these folks are in managerial positions. It is SUCH a poor way to manage employees, (my boss at my ‘day job’ has a similar managerial style) and does nothing to foster the loyalty and productivity necessary to be a good employee. Then when you add in an overall feeling of knowing you are not working at your true calling, it really leads to frustration and dissatisfaction. Not to mention how HARD it is to leave your child behind each day to go there!!!!! Unfortunately, i am a 50 year old single bread-winner for my household, which makes a huge career switxh teickier. but you…YOU are young! And I am here to tell you that you absoolutely made the right choice! Follow your dreams! Seriously, that is not just a catch phrase.Follow them. And it may not happen that you arrive at your dream career tomorrow, but you can get there! It may take working at something that is not exactly your dream career, (maybe a few somethings)but even those will be so much more fulfilling when you know that they are steps leading to the ultimate fulfillment!! this is exactly what I always coach my 3 grown sons to try to do, and I believe these words with all my heart!!! GOOD LUCK to you, and it will be awesome to watch your journey, so be sure to write more posts like this, so we can follow along, ok?

  6. says

    Thank you for sharing your story! I also have become unhappy and unfulfilled at my job, but the money is good. Since I started blogging and making a little extra, I can save up to one day be able to quit and find something that makes me happy. I believe God has a plan for all of our lives and will take care of us if we are faithful and patient. Good luck on your new chapter of life!